Rob’s Journey

So today I needed to do some work from the house.  There are certain programs that I have on my home computer that I needed to use, so I worked part of the day from my home office (better known as my pantry).  Some time back my son was given a very nice gift.  It is a gift that he enjoys playing with very much, but it is a gift that has made me very nervouse for some time.  You see, my son basically destroys almost anything that we give him.  I cannot begin to count the number of toys that we have bought him and become broken in the first 2-3 days that he has them.  So when he was given this somewhat pricey toy, I had a feeling it wouldn’t last very long.  So we repeatedly tell him to be careful.  To watch how he plays with it.  To take care of it.

But today, as I was working, my daughter walked into the room where I was with this particular toy broken in two.  She proceeded to explain how her brother had just broken it and had now locked himself in the restroom to hide from me.  I became extremely upset with him for not caring for the gift that was given to him.  You see, I knew that it wasn’t just any gift.  It wasn’t from the dollar store or from the flea market.  Someone thought enough of my son to pay good money for this gift.  I was so irritated that I actually went for a drive, but while I drove I began to think.

Why was I so irritated?  It’s not like this was the first time he’d done something like this.  And then this thought ran across my mind.  I am so upset because I desire to give my son good gifts, but I feel like I can’t give him what I would really like to because he won’t properly care for it.  I was literally frustrated because I can’t give him what I’d like to give him.  If I give him something costly and something good, it won’t last and it will be destroyed.  And then, it happened.  Again.  God spoke.

“Don’t you think I feel the same way about you?  There are things that I would love to give you.  I even have them stored for you.  But I can’t.  You don’t know how to care for them yet.  If I give them to you now, you’ll destroy them.”  WOW!  Do I frustrate God in that same way?  Are there really great gifts that he desires to give me but can’t?  I pray for maturity.  That I may become fully mature in Christ.  I know that when that truly happens, his blessings and gifts can flow freely into my life.  Why?  Because when I am mature he can trust that I will properly care for what he gives me.

What are your thoughts?